Chapter Seven: Night Conversations

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Su Mian had long since given up on his talent for lying with open eyes. If she rejected him, would she agree to share a room with him? Would she allow him to touch her? He knew very well that he was the person she had come into contact with most over the past twenty-one years—no one else compared. He didn’t even bother to hide his investigation into her; was he so certain she was single?

But Su Mian feared two things above all else in life: one was absolute power that rendered all schemes meaningless; the other was human vulnerability, even if it was feigned.

So, although Su Mian didn’t believe that Shang Jiuxu’s feigned pitiful questioning was sincere, she still yielded with a sigh, slipped off her slippers onto the carpet, and got into bed from the other side.

After all, Shang Jiuxu wouldn’t lie to her about being single. Since he had already broken up with Sister Wan, she wasn’t the type to be coy.

She lay outside the covers, he inside. Just as they settled, a thunderclap sounded outside. Startled, Su Mian immediately burrowed under the covers, curling up like a shrimp and clutching her head as she trembled.

At some point, he had turned off the ceiling light, leaving not even a bedside lamp on. The pure darkness was filled only with his soft breathing, unseen by him, which gave her comfort.

She heard him turn over, then gently wrap an arm around her, pulling her close.

She shivered slightly in his crisp shower gel scent as he patted her back rhythmically.

After years of tension, her nerves eased at the familiarity of his presence. Su Mian felt tears welling up and bit down on his firm chest. He paused his pats.

His skin was hard and muscular, causing her teeth to slip. Suddenly, tears silently streamed down.

“Qingqing,” Shang Jiuxu immediately noticed her distress, his voice filled with both pain and helplessness. He reached out to wipe her tears, but she slapped his hand hard on the back. The sharp slap rang crisply in the quiet room. He tightened his embrace, almost melding her into the steady beat of his heart. “It’s my fault. If you want to cry, cry.”

Su Mian’s crying intensified, torrents of tears pouring as she gasped for breath—embarrassing, yet somehow not entirely shameful.

Because Shang Jiuxu was so gentle. He pulled tissue from the nightstand and, even in the darkness, managed to find her tears. The tickling sensation made her unaware that each tear traced a path deep in his heart.

Why had they agreed to break up? Why had he disappeared abroad for two years without a word? Why was he entangled with Sister Wan yet so meticulous in caring for her?

What exactly did he consider her? A sister? A lover he could summon or dismiss at will? Or a dispensable plaything?

Emotionally, she didn’t believe he thought so. Rationally, his actions proclaimed indifference.

As he wiped her face, Su Mian suddenly bit down hard on the webbing between his thumb and index finger, applying seven-tenths of her strength.

“I’m sorry,” he sighed.

Another thunderclap outside. She bit down harder. He sighed again, brows uncreased in the unseen darkness, gently stroking her hair with his other hand.

“Shang... Jiuxu...” She finally released her grip, stopping her tears but still sobbing quietly. Her lips pressed tight, stubbornly hiding her vulnerability in her voice. “I never really wanted to leave you back then.”

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Shang Jiuxu seemed to smile, his fingertip lightly brushing beneath her eyes.

“I know,” he said softly. He had always known.

Su Mian’s chest tightened. “Then why did you...” She didn’t finish. He understood.

“Why did you insist on breaking up and pretend with someone else to deceive me?”

His question silenced her instantly. She rested her head on his chest, blushing as red as a ripe quail egg.

So he knew everything! Then he was truly cruel!

Back then, to successfully break up, she had conspired with her high school heartthrob, Yin Xiaochuan, to stage an ambiguous act. Then she told Shang Jiuxu she was tired, bored, and had fallen for someone else, and that they should part ways.

At the time, Shang Jiuxu’s hurt, desolate expression was all an act?

“You knew and still did it!” She argued, unashamed.

“If I hadn’t agreed to break up, would you have stayed?” Shang Jiuxu’s voice came low above her, muffled.

Su Mian was speechless for the second time. She wouldn’t have.

When Shang’s father discovered their relationship, he didn’t confront her but pressured Shang Jiuxu instead, as she overheard.

He forced Shang Jiuxu to choose: if he insisted on being with Su Mian, he would lose his inheritance rights, which would then pass to either Shang Ji or Shang Biehan.

Shang Biehan was less capable than Shang Ji, and she refused to let Shang Ji, the illegitimate son who had caused his mother’s death, claim the position for which Shang Jiuxu had suffered so much since childhood.

She also couldn’t remain his weakness, forcing him to be besieged from all sides during turbulent times.

Moreover, Grandpa was getting older. She didn’t want to bring shame to the Shang family or cause him grief because of her.

“But you agreed,” Su Mian suddenly sobered, tensing in his arms. “Whether I proposed the breakup or not, you would have left me anyway. The only difference was who took the initiative.”

Shang Jiuxu said nothing. Su Mian gently pressed, “Isn’t that true?”

Her tone was soft, masking her anxiety but hoping he understood her unease and would deny it.

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“Qingqing, I wouldn’t have proposed it,” Shang Jiuxu said, not wanting to frighten her. His voice was hoarse, the restraint of desire palpable. “But if you had made up your mind, I would have given you whatever you wanted.”

He was lying.

Every dark, obsessive thought in his heart involved her. He would indeed fulfill all her wishes, but if she insisted on leaving him, he would become a ruthless beast, imprisoning her, locking her away so she’d never see the light of day again—only him.

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